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One of my little personal victories of the past few years - is that I am shaping my life more and more towards what I would like to see it. By now I know I can't - I am literally incapable of - just focusing on career. Or being just a Mom. Or just a wife. Or only building my life around gym, swimming pool and my kitchen. Or only devote time and energy to my hobbies, books and education. I get the biggest satisfaction and fulfillment from my life when I continuously take up all these different roles in different areas of my life and put to use all my skills and knowledge to find my life's new perfect balance. My life's new perfect balance is not a constant by the way; which makes defining and establishing it quite hard, but most of the times - interesting and exiting.

My other little personal victory of the past few years - is the ability to act before I change my mind :) Once I know I need to start doing something or I need stop doing something - I can push myself to do so, before starting wallowing in self-discouraging thoughts of the plan being too expensive, too time consuming, too exhausting...  Any form of action proves to be LESS time or energy consuming than when preceded by a phase of pulling yourself together.  Another interesting thing about the energy though, is that the more of it I use on getting things done right away (whether major milestones or line items in my agenda's to-do list) the more energy I get back. Mystery.

As for the things that still do not.... present themselves in the way most favourable for me :) I could probably single out the lack of time as single biggest drawback. With the obvious need to complete education, take career one step up, devote enough time to my family, welcome the new family member (which in my Universe equals to a significant amount of time put into sports, walks, sleep, body and skin care), making sure our home is clean and we have enough food in the fridge so we can keep running, getting roof works in the way and planning upcoming bathroom works, doing research on and planning to obtain another couple of licensing... with all that I sense like the days are packed and yet there are no major breakthroughs in sight. I was going to fix this feeling from last year by boiling down my current life goals to only 16 for this year...

Enjoying being myself. Biens dans ma peau, and starting to feel confident that I can maintain this feeling for the next several years at least.